"I thought I knew, but now I know that rose trees never grow,
in New York city."

for the second weekend in a row, we went to new york for an overnighter.
that makes three times in the past two months we have been to the city,
and before that it was four years ago with azcra and aliona,
who coincidentally called me yesterday for reasons i don't yet know.

if you have been wondering, i haven't intentionally been hiding away, i just
have a lot of new things going on in my life, some that take every spare
moment. there have been both wonderful and not so wonderful things happening,
and i have been learning a lot about myself and the people that i call family.

i have a tendency to see the potential in people and when people don't meet
their potential, i find disappointment follows. part of me wishes i wasn't
blessed (cursed) with that gift, but i am and so i learn to take the bad with
the good and find a middle ground where everyone can meet. it occurs to me
that this applies to many situations i have going on at the moment...

years ago, i read the fountainhead, and it changed me. i think about it now
and how it's words still apply, even to this situation

"Anything may be betrayed, anyone may be forgiven. But not those who lack the courage of their own greatness."

perhaps i need to read it again...